Poems

Tiny Angels

Tiny Angels rest your wings
sit with me for awhile.
How I long to hold your hand,
And see your tender smile.
Tiny Angel, look at me,
I want this image clear....
That I will forget your precious face
Is my biggest fear.
Tiny Angel can you tell me,
Why you have gone away?
You weren't here for very long....
Why is it, you couldn't stay?
Tiny Angel shook his head,
"These things I do not know....
But I do know that you love me,
And that I love you so".

Author Unknown

The Cord

We are connected,
My child and I, by
An invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.

It's not like the cord
That connects us 'til birth
This cord can't been seen
By any on Earth.

This cord does it's work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.

I know that it's there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.

The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed
It can't be denied.

It's stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.

And though you are gone,
Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.

It pulls at my heart
I am bruised...I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.

I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A mother and child
Death can't take it away!

Author Unknown

The Results Are In

So the autopsy results finally came back after 3 and a half long months. So the official cause of death was a tumor that grew in his head. My son never had a chance even if he did go down to Children's Hospital in Pittsburgh. I guess it is reassuring to me to know that we made the right decision to keep him with us for that short time and take advantage of the time we had. It's hard knowing also though that there is nothing to blame and that it is so rare yet it happened to MY son. I haven't written about it until now because I just didn't know what to say or think. The day replays in my mind every single day and I miss him very much but I am trying to figure out how to keep going with Mel and William and be happy with the family that I have here with me. I love them very very much!

Also I have stated my second and final class for the summer. Just three more weeks and they will be all finished. Then all I have to do is take my exam in September. I hope this is all worth it in the end!